coincidence or fate?

well, i had the very same mixed feeling again. to go or not to go? i decided to let it on the fate to decide. whichever train that comes by, i will take the one first. on the tv screen, it says the train to joo koon with 2 mins while the train to jurong east via north-south line is 3 mins. so, i guess i won’t be going to bishan this time. miraculously, the train to jurong east via north-south line arrived first. so, i took it and there i go on my way to bishan.

it was such a long queue for the bubble tea. my goodness. 5-6 people in front of me. had my favourite plain bubble milktea and walked the very same path every time i sent her home. i will walk the path with the grill and she will walk next to me. slowly stroll along the pathway and think of the sweet memories we had together. the very park we spend our time together talking to each other. finally, when i arrived at the overhead bridge, there from far, i saw this figure that looks exactly like her and eventually, it was her. was it purely coincidence or fate?

my bad, i can’t stop staring at you

today i was staring at her. staring deeply at her. she was so b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l. it doesn’t matter if people don’t think so but i do.

she was the first who gave me a bear. never have i ever received a bear from anyone and on it, it bears my name. i think it’s so sweet of you. have anyone gave you a melody before? am i the first?

well, my eyes are getting tired and i think you’ve fast asleep. have a great night and i love you! always have always will!

爱上你

seeing her frowning, seeing her worrying but you could do nothing at all is not a good thing after all. you wish you just could be her superman to clear all her worries and remove the frown from her face. one thing i can say today is she can finally strike it off her mind. maybe i was a little hasty but i don’t like the way she was being talked down by someone. i just do not like it when people being rude to her. please show some respect to her. i bought donuts and milk pan for her but she only ate one milk pan and now i have the rest for myself. oh my. how am i suppose to finish all that? though i have been at tpy since 8pm but i never told her that. haha.

now let’s enjoy a nice song by s.h.e.

i believe

let me “emo” for a while. haha. i just did something S-T-U-P-I-D today. i just had to call her back even though she rejected my call. why can’t i use my B-I-R-D brain to think before i do things? sometimes, i just hate my impulsive action. please jimmy! please do not repeat your stupid mistake again.

here’s my coming week schedule.

mon 9-8
tue 9-6
wed OFF
thu 9-6
fri 9-8
sat 9-8
sun 12-9

nothing’s gonna change my love for you

this song keeps playing in my mind. basically, it spells my heart out for you.

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They’ll take us where we want to go
Hold me now, touch me now
I don’t want to live without you

*Nothing’s gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I’ll never ask for more than your love
Nothing’s gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing’s gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead a way for us
Like a guiding star
I’ll be there for you if you should need me
You don’t have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I’ll help you see forever too
Hold me now, touch me now
I don’t want to live without you

my melody

i know you love melody and all these while, i had never get you even one before. hope you’ll love it! please don’t pluck the strawberry away and replace with banana ok? haha. i really caught it using only $5! guess i was lucky though or maybe it was your blessing because i had you in my mind when catching it. in my mind, my only thought was that how happy you will be when you saw this melody. hope every time you sees it, it’ll put a smile on your face. hope it keep you company when you need one.

it’s raining over here. hope you have a good night over there too.

i love you. no matter how long it takes, i’ll still wait for you. be it even i have to wait till i’m 92.

only if you’re happy

nothing matters me more than you’re happy. every smile, every laughter of yours… that’s all i want to see. in the past, i have caused you miserable days. there’s nothing i can do to undo all those things but only to make you happy no matter what it takes.

do not be afraid if i treat you good, you do not need to give me anything in return but just a smile on your face or by telling me you’re happy. i am happy as long as you are happy.

in fact, i am very happy today for i am a winner in the first time of my life. the first thing that came into my mind was to call you but then i plan to give you a surprise. a surprise that you never could have foresee. a surprise that you always never believe i could do it. all i ever want is to see you happy! that’s all.

may 11th

i know you love hash brown. so, i will always give you my hash brown and i will have the rest of the meal.

let’s go for a trip after your examinations ok? let’s have a long one this time round to compensate for the last time.

i might have made mistakes before but this time round, i’m not likely to make it again. i will show you a different side of me. here’s something i want to share with everyone. saw it today and i quoted directly from her friend.

Love is like smiling,
it never fades and is contagious.
Love is not finding someone you can live with;
its finding someone you can’t live without.
Love does not consist in gazing at each other,
but in looking together in the same direction.
Love is not a matter of counting the years,
but making the years count.

Love knows no reasons,
Love knows no lies.
Love defies all reason,
Love has no eyes.
But love is not blind,
Love sees but doesn’t mind.

i always thought love is blind. this phrase inspired me! it wasn’t blind but it chooses not to mind. that’s love! loving someone and accepting someone the way they are. loving them unconditionally. i am only learning by now.

may 10th

i was anxious and excited to hear that she’s coming over my workplace to study. so anxious that i actually cleaned and wiped all the tables.

made her her favourite. lettuce and more onions, no tomatoes but yes for cucumbers. i have to say she love all onions be it fried or fresh but if you try to toast fresh onions, it’ll smell deliciously awesome!

she looks dazzling with the necklace and earrings. it looks as though they comes in pair. hope you love it! by the way, it’s not a mother’s day gift ok! hope i can relieve you from all the numbers and digits! you can do it because i have faith in you. i will be by your side and we will pull it through together.

may 9th

today is mother’s day. first and foremost, happy mother’s day! to my aunt, to my mom and to all the beloved moms that have taken good care of me.

something peculiar happened today. after the meetup for lunch, i was indecisive whether as to make a stop at the very place we met or just to head home. i took the path to home then. right at the stop at raffles place, i had no idea why but it just happened, i stepped out of the train and took the escalator up and i went straight to the special place instead. i miss the place a lot. i miss the bubble tea there, i miss the park there, i miss the swing there, i miss the late night walks, i miss the you walk out and i walk in the grill-side …

while i was strolling around the complex, something that i wasn’t expecting but eventually it happened. was it fated or pure coincidence? let’s keep the details for my own!

and let’s enjoy this beautiful song here!