i will

embrace all your dreams.i will help you to realise every single one of it but i do hope that you’ll help me to realise mine too. mine’s just a simple one compared to yours. achievable and sustainable so as long with you by my side. i guess you should know roughly what’s my dream is all about. i just wish to see through the days with you together, to share all your joys and pains in life, to make you believe that everyday’s a bliss. of course i do have other dreams but this will be the dream that i want to share with you and only you.

ban qing ge by yuan ruo lan.

merry xmas

to everyone! so, how did i went through my xmas eve?

my parents wanted to have dinner at din tai fung but the queue was amazingly long. so they change it to have at old town coffee instead. i didn’t have dinner because it’s already 8 by then. so, i gotta rush down just in case not to be late. i want to tell you that i’m not someone who’s always late and i really hate being late for my ownself. in the train, the amount of people are mass. i guess all going to celebrate xmas as well. on everyone’s hand there’s this xmas present but on mine, only bubble tea. funny isn’t it? haha. later on, i went to buy some nacho cheese from breadtalk and it’s even more ironic. i know she loves to eat this!

i waited for her at the place. it was chilling after the rain. after a while, it started to rain and it was even colder. i waited… finally, she came and thank goodness else my bladder will burst in no time. haha. we rushed to the cinema and luckily the show haven’t started. she was cold and so i gave her the jacket. in fact, i brought it because i knew she’ll need it. we continued with our show.

in the end, we didn’t go to settlers because her friends couldn’t make it. so, we chose to go home. luckily, we cab home and manage to reach before 12. so we countdown together along the stairs. 10..9..8..7..6..5..5..4..3..2..MERRY XMAS! i wished it out loud. haha. sent her home and there goes my christmas eve.

beautiful love by tanya chua.

13th time

we met for this year and i was late. well, i can’t agree more… we walked a lot a lot. plaza singapura to cineleisure; on foot. cineleisure to far east plaza; on foot. orchard to vivocity;by train. vivocity to hougang; by train. hougang to bishan; by bus. although it seems a lot of trains involved but the main thing is we walked a lot for all these places. shopping for things especially for christmas. before that, i met up with my baxter ex-colleagues for lunch and christmas gift exchange. she was real busy with her long list of shopping items.  well, how could i bear to see her all alone looking for all those items? of course. i tag along. haha.

someone was so rough! broke my things. well, that’s brute strength you have over there. went to have major crush and first love at the same desert place again. overall, i think major crush is nicer than first love. confusing over what we’re talking about right? well, try going to far east plaza, there’s this desert shop at the far corner just next to the toilet and near to long john silver. by the way, it seems that long john silver closed down.

i think heels on you looks so much better. i can’t explain why; it’s just the feel of it. i was mesmerised when you’re walking with heels around the shop. i just stare at your both feet. stare… dinner at harbour front market centre. i love char kuay teow and carrot cake. it’s very rare to find nice ones.

rushing from place to place was a very rare occurrence to me. definitely none but being with you, it seems like 24 hours are never enough because i know we can’t stop looking for things… well, it seems fun and interesting for someone like me who prefers order and slightly routinal work. you messed up my life and i love it!

rushing down to a place just to find a certain thing, shopping till the shop closes down, rushing to find an atm machine, rushing for dinner, blame me if i took you the wrong route, telling me your dreams and plans for life, getting excited about the plan and putting me as your co-partner and making me do most of the things, sitting side by side busy idling, taking you home by myself, spoiling my plan of protecting you from being robbed by saying there’s a lot of money in me instead of you, daring me to knock all the doors and ring all the bells in the 1oth level, playing hide and seek with me and putting my stuffs right in front of the lift door and making me to pick it up.

well, seems like things have been happening for us. i enjoy the time being with you, seriously! i love it. you just made me laugh so hard when i think about it again.

on the right side

i know exactly what i wanted and what i needed in my life and you’re definitely someone i needed all along;  someone i want to be with;  someone that i won’t want to live without.

you shou bian by guang liang.

today’s the day

that she’ll be back. i’m still eagerly waiting for her message or preferably her call. i really missed her very much. i think i can’t control myself and i will blurt it all out over the phone later if she ever called me. i did, i did spam her phone with my messages.  i think i’ll be dead. she’ll definitely murder me alive for making her phone beeping non-stop.

yesterday i was browsing through this wedding magazine. a sudden felt of bliss from all the pictures; wedding gowns, wedding bands, wedding packages, wedding chapels, etc. i hope she’ll be the one in it and i’ll be the one next to her. i love the chapel at guam or bali which can overlook the bed of sea. you must be wondering… such good imagination! haha. it seems every mom wants to see the one i really like. most of them has been asking already. in fact, i even told my mom about her. everything about her. i even showed her pictures. guess what! my mom said… haha. secret! i told you before if you remember. how i wish i could show you to them… my dearest aunt, my mom and all my friends’ mom.

finally, she messaged me that she’s back and i just finished talking on the phone with her. i really miss her a lot and indeed, i really use one breath to tell her that i missed her so much!!! haha. felt so relieve after doing that. i guess i bottled it all up these few days. alright. at least now she and everyone are back safely. hope they have a happy trip!

the magic of words

It is undeniable the fact that “IT” can brings two together.
Life has definitely become more meaningful when “IT” breathes into you.
Origin of “IT” is unknown but somehow we all know “IT” exists among us.
Very few would know the secrets to “IT”.
Even if you ask me, myself would not have known much either.
Lasting is what everyone will ask about “IT”.
Only a few who could gave you the answers to “IT”.
Vain is when everyone will feel if ever they failed to “IT” or be “IT”.
Ever has always been the word that goes with “IT”.
Looking beyond what “IT” can brings is unimaginable.
Letting “IT” into your life has somehow completes you without you even knowing it.
Everything has been so wonderful for ME & YOU and “IT” is the only reason everything has been happening.

guess what’s “IT” and the hidden message in it…tell me when you find out.

less than an hour

she’ll be leaving. she’s going for a holiday with her family. a short holiday but i’m missing her already. it’s just a few days that i’m back from msia and now she had to leave again.

ru guo neng zai yi qi by jasmine leong.

stay with me

is what i wanted to tell you all along. when i listened to this song…
the one that comes into my mind is you…
the one who gave me the bear before i left and told me there’s a msg inside if i dig out all the cotton.
the one whom i left my safra card with and told her the discounts each time right after she finished patronizing the shop.
the one whom i gave a garden to and kept laughing and said my Christmas tree was lousy.
i’m sure by now you know who you are and you can’t deny there’s someone else like you always do. haha.
so now, enjoy this song by evan yo – stay with me.

Stay With Me Lyrics

fifth day

was a rainy day. it rained the whole morning. i woke up late morning. was waiting for her message but only received it in the afternoon. clock was ticking down to the hours left before i’m going off. i was thinking if the rain could’ve continued, i might not be able to make it back because the railroad might be flooded and thus train can’t move on flooded tracks.

the rain stopped in the late afternoon. had my usual lunch. my aunt cooked my favourite food; wax duck. something that i’ve translated directly from cantonese. it was a delicacy for chinese new year. i had it every year since i’m young. miss those old times. was busy ripping those dvds. time passed quickly and there comes evening. she’s going out with her best friend for dinner. i’m going to celebrate my cousin’s birthday. me; pizza and cake for dinner. her; delicious foods at chomp chomp. which was better? haha. finally, the hours came when i needed to board the train.

i just can’t wait to be back home so i can finally savour my chats with her again. haha.

fourth day

was a cleaning day. after brunch, i was back at my aunt’s house. i started to move around the house, each corner and reminiscing old memories but to my surprise, most of the things are covered with dust. so, i decided to clean up those thick layers of dust. started off with the cupboard top, ceiling wall, aircon unit, floor, hideous corners and there goes my day. i was down with flu although i wore a mask.

of course, i was checking my phone from time to time to see whether do i receive msg from her or not. i get impatient at times when i don’t receive her msg for quite some time. haha. that’s just someone who’s eager to know her day and someone who’s just can’t get enough of her. what can get me more excited than to hear my own phone rang with a msg from her! haha. sometimes, i do think i’m a dudo because i really did listen to you and went to dig up all the cotton in the bear to see whether there’s a msg or not. i think i took an hour time to dig all up and put all back in. haha. don’t worry. the bear still looks the same; not a single piece of cotton is missing.

another day to go… i’ve taken quite some pics of my home here; the place where i grew up. i wanted to show you. can’t wait to be back. lunch on tuesday!