today’s the 11th time we met this year. first time for movie together. if that was consider walking her home, then it would be the first time i’m doing it. we watched Wild Child together. it seems that i laughed more often than she did or maybe i didn’t realize when she laughed. i would secretly catch a glimpse at her for seconds before she realized or maybe she did realize but didn’t mention. although it was dark but i would try my best to make out an image of her;side view. oh, she wore a wig today and guess what! she just look alike someone in cyborg she. the short hair gal. i wanted to tell her she looks good in anything but i didn’t.
finally, i’ve pop the question. at least i did have the courage to do it. although the reply wasn’t that positive but somehow i’ve expected it. maybe the time wasn’t right? maybe she couldn’t forget her ex? maybe she was afraid? maybe she thinks i’m not right for her? too many maybes on mind but i told myself, at least i tried. i’m sorry if i scared her with that question. what was i thinking? haha. well, time is all i have for you. i will give in! even if it takes forever.
she sent me a forwarded mail “men are hard to please” and asking me am i that kind of person? to me, all that matters will be that she’s happy. the greatest thing you can do for your the other half is to bring happiness to them. it’s to make them fall in love with you over and over again. it’s to prove to them that they didn’t choose the wrong person to fall for. it’s to tell them that you’re true one that they are looking for. you can’t buy happiness and it definitely doesn’t equal to money for if it does, it’ll loses its value over time and it doesn’t last.
i gave her the miniature garden i created for her. i wanted to tell her that be it life or love, it’ll always be beautiful. a garden that flowers blossom, birds serenade and evergreen always. her very own garden with her name on it. i wanted to tell her this but i didn’t. i hope our love will grow in time just like how the garden will. we will plant it with hopes, nurture it with love, shower it with care, trim it with concern, fertilize it with dreams and grow it with futures. we’ll brave through the seasons; ups and downs together. i love you!