finally

i guessed she’s fast asleep. we had our usual phone conversation again or should i say, i coerced it. haha. she had no choice but to succumb to it. i ran into moody today. i guess i’m affected because of her. i didn’t know i would be so lost without her. a lost sheep. i tried to watch movies to distract myself from thinking of her but it didn’t came true. i wasn’t distracted at all. oh no. am i into too deep? i’m very afraid. it’s always a thin fine line and almost invisible the line of friendship. no matter how good we both are to each other, i still don’t see that i really care and love you as my good friend.

nevertheless, it might incur to me that you didn’t want to hurt me that you kept it away all those words. tonight, i did sense it a little. i’m not dumb. like i told you, i wouldn’t regret for choosing this path. you have your own opinions and i have mine. i’m not here to change yours but only if you’re on your own will.

you know i love to talk to you but you just make use of it to threaten me at times like today. i was dying to talk to you and you almost put it down immediately you called. i’m glad your response was immediate you saw my message. i’m glad that you even care and concern about me. trying to coerce me out about my foul mood. i was reluctant at first but i did told you at last. c’ mon. how am i suppose to tell you that i miss you badly even it’s only hours that you’re gone? i don’t like your teasing about me with other girls. i loathed it. don’t push me away if you don’t mean it. you’re making me lost. don’t doubt on me when i’m saying the truth. i mean it when i do. don’t even joke about it.

although my mood was foul in the earlier part of the day but it became good in the end of the day. it’s all because of you. you knew you played a great part in my life. thank you!

june 29

was a hilarious night and the reason i’m laughing so hard because everything was just so funny. an unforgettable night. at least, it’s something we regard as “up” in our life after all the “down”. i wasn’t feeling comfortable after the phone conversation last night. i delve deep into my thoughts. am i going too far? am i going too fast? i know i just have to accommodate and tolerate but when will it be in return? i’m lost.

i need you by leann rimes.

your decision

in life, there are countless of decisions you have to make. being able to make the right choice from the wrong ones are vital to the path you wanted to take. also, making the right choice will allow you never to look back and regretted the choice you have made back then.

i’ve made quite a few wrong ones and it’s pointless to sob about it now but to keep on moving and telling myself not to repeat the same thing again or else i’ll be making a fool of myself. let me remind you again. it’s always your decision in the end that counts. you can seek words of wisdom from those who have experienced the same situation to help you to decide but don’t allow anyone to decide it for you. it’s your fate and your life. don’t put it easily on others to decide for you. have faith in yourself. if you don’t even believe in yourself, who will believe in you?

i’ve decided my path. how about you?

ji de ai by ah qin & nicky.

beauty and the beast

how does the story end? can someone tell me. i’m sure it’s like any other fairy tale stories. in the end, they live happily ever after. how does all these stories reflect in our lives? actually, it just gave us a brief insight on how we suppose to look at life when we’re young but as soon as we turn older, the real image of life has distorted from what are those reflected in fairy tales. it’s so because we’re blinded by the heart of greed. lies came in our life. evil has become our way of living.

i believe every people are born kind. it’s them who let themselves be blinded. life is short and like i always say, we’re transient. we’re only here temporary. why not take some time to shower care and concern for the ones around you? a warm smile can be a good start. subsequently, to offer a helping hand to those who in need. lastly, to give all you can to the ones you cherished for life.

i cherish you and that’s why i dedicated my life for you. to protect is to love. to love is to protect. i will protect you. i can’t promise a world without harm coming from all around you but all i can do is to keep you safe from harm.

tiamo by liu li yang and yan ya lun.

because of you

it’s been a routine for me to stay up to wait for your call or should i say it’s a habit for me to do that. it’s not a matter you would call me or not but rather i choose to stay up to wait. in case, there’s any emergencies that i can attend to. eventhough how sleepy i was yesterday, i chose to stay alert because i’m afraid i might sleep like a dead log.

like i told you before, there’ll never be a day i won’t message you at all and also i know there’ll never be a day you won’t reply me at all. even how many messages i sent, although the reply might not be immediate but i know you’ll reply in the end. i know there are other important matters that you need to attend to. i’ll understand. we do keep our promise, remember?

days might be busy ahead for us but i’ll never let the busy be an excuse for me not to message you or call just to even disturb you. haha. whatever it is, be it i’m dumb, be it i’m stupid, be it i’m naive, be it i’m lame, above all, i do and i care about you.

zhi yin wei ni by nicholas teo.

blissful

there are people out there who doesn’t seem to know how blissful they are and yet not appreciating and still not contented for what they have be it things or people around them. i’m here to remind people who are once forgetful or still forgetful.

being together and still having each other is a blissful thing. there are many people out there dying to be loved or dying to get love and yet there are couples out there not appreciating each other and just wind up their relationship eventhough it’s only minor hardships and setbacks. is love so in vain?

the course of true love is never easy and everyone shall bear this in mind. if things comes easily would it last? ask yourself. i’m just saying that if you’re in love, be prepared to endure hardships together, even setbacks that will discourage both of you, don’t give up trying. talk it out. the man, bring the matter on hand; find the main cause, settle it together. the woman, face the problem; share it and be honest about it. it’s not a coincidence to be together; it’s such a fate that brings you together.

it’s time to wake up. love is ain’t a game. if you think it is, you’re still a child. it requires commitment, responsibilities, caring, sharing and faith. if you think you can’t fulfill all these, don’t be in it because you might hurt the other party. don’t make excuses such as lonely or out of love to be in a relationship, it won’t get you anywhere. if you have love and lost, you will know what i mean.

love like you never love before.
love like you have never been hurt.
love like today’s the last day you’ll live.
love like she’s the last person you’ll ever love.

bowling

had games of bowling yesterday with bingjie and leslie and his family. joined in later by jinjing and friends. yesterday, my highest score was 126 pin falls. i guess i’m lucky enough to have strikes and spares. subsequent games was as bad as ever. we reached the place at 4+ and we ended at 7+. i was so hungry after all that. so we settled ourselves at west mall’s foodcourt. i had unagi ramen. haha. basically, i’m only interested in the unagi.

impulse buying is bad and i know that but i still can’t take it off. i bought something that i regretted yesterday. although it’s just only $10 but… still it’s $10. alright, let’s listen to the beauty that sings.

xiao pi qi by genie chuo.

clumsiness acts

the first act of clumsiness. i was trying to take a picture of strawberry donut. my donut slipped right out, i went to catch the donut instead of my cellphone. the colours at the corner side of it came off. my friends was stunned when i gave up my own cellphone for the donut. i think, tasty food are irresistible in some way. haha.

the second act of clumsiness. while i was trying to keep my itouch, it came right out of the pouch and ouch! it fell right to the floor. i quickly picked it up and kept it away safely. i took it out again and i saw at the corner side of it, it was dented. oh my! in a matter of few hours, another precious thing of mine suffered because of my clumsiness. my itouch touched the floor. haha.

i think i shouldn’t tease people on how clumsy they are; retribution is in the way. haha.

hardwork is a must. effort goes along too. i believe in what you sow is what you’ll reap. effort and hardwork will be paid in the end. so, don’t give up! show me that you’re a high flyer. show me your fighting spirit, ok? i’ll always be right for you at the end of the day. cheers~

shi ba ai bu ai by yi shi li and qi er.

xin bu liao qin 新不了情

心若倦了,
xin ruo juan liao
If your heart is weary,
泪也乾了,
lei ye gan liao
And your tears are all dried up.
这份心情,
zhe fen shen qing
This feeling,
难舍难了。
nan she nan liao
Is hard to relinquish or forget.

曾经拥有,
ceng jing yong you
I once used to have,
天荒地老,
tian huang di lao
All the time in the world.
已不见你,
yi bu jian ni
But I haven’t seen you,
暮暮与朝朝。
mu mu yu chao chao
For many nights and many days.

这一份情,
zhe yi fen qing
This love,
永远难了,
yong nan ming liao
Is forever difficult to resolve.
愿来生还能,
yuan lai sheng hai neng
I hope in our afterlife,
再度拥抱。
zai du yong bao
We can embrace again.

爱一个人,
ai yi ge ren
Loving someone,
如何斯守到老,
ru he si shou dao lao
How do you remain faithful till you’re old?
怎样面对一切,
zen yang mian dui yi qie
How do you face everything,
我不知道。
wo bu zhi dao
I do not know.

回忆过去,
hui yi guo qu
Reviewing the past,
痛苦的相思忘不了,
tong ku de xiang si wang bu liao
The painful memories are unforgettable.
为何你还来,
wei he ni hai lao
Why do you come then,
拨动我心跳。
bo dong wo xin tiao
To make my heart race.
爱你怎么能了,
ai ni zen me neng liao
How is it possible to stop loving you?
今夜的你应该明了,
jin ye ni ying gai ming liao
Tonight, you should understand,
缘难了情难了。
yuan nan liao qing nan liao.
It is difficult to escape fate, just as it is difficult to dissolve love.

shopping spree.

my goodness. today, i’ve nearly spent $200. went to apply for my citizenship and there goes my $90. bought a polo tee and two bermudas and there goes my $120. haha. i love those two bermudas and the polo tee. i wanted to get that pink shirt too. haha. maybe i’ll get it next month? haha. or maybe there’s better to come. ooo~ today’s definitely not a monday blue to us because we were basically enjoying ourselves indulging in shopping. haha. oops. kinda happy to shop some stuffs. on the way back,  i was so tired and ipod all the way. i’m still not getting enough of my ipod touch. haha. it’s so sleek. oh my!!! alright. i’m still waiting for someone’s reply. guess today everyone’s happy. she’s getting her stuff, i got my stuffs, he got his stuffs. a happy day for everyone. voila~

ai zhuan jiao by alan luo. my favourite drama, zhuan jiao * yu dao ai.