exams’ results will be released tomorrow morning at 10am. kind of anxious thinking about it. wonder what will it be? it rained over here. i wonder how’s everything over the other side? is everything well? i still remembered if ever i got an A, i will get a kiss. now it seems so far far away. promises made, wishes made are nothing but empty promises and fake wishes. words are just so unreal when you think back. keep telling myself i should move on but i still don’t know why i’m still clinging onto it.
sweet memories huh. indeed. when it rains, i always remember the first time we share an umbrella. i admit i am an idiot who don’t know how to share an umbrella. haha. well, everyone has their first time and then i improved over time. i still remembered you praised me for it.
whenever i see millennia tower, i’ll always think of the times i used to wait for you, bought you supper, brought you food, going for supper, wait for you in the middle of the cold rain. i miss those times. it happened a while ago but it seems so fresh in my mind.
i know you won’t be visiting my blog anymore. so, it’s alright for me to pen down all the sweet memories. don’t be mistaken that i’m not still over you. i just love the sweet memories we had.
well, i asked my friend and that’s what she told me which i think she’s completely right about everything.
-i guess that’s ur weakness
-ur always so over-like a girl
-if u konjw wat i mean
-but she doesnt even like u at that time
-u put all in and what do u get in return?>
-im just saying that…..
-u put in all ur love, heart, soul into a girl
-u didnt even give that person time to breath and digest and all
-and sometimes girl take it for granted
-since she konws u like her so much de
-but then all the things u did for her
-maybe she somehow fell for it
-but she didnt like u
-she just like the attention/ kindness that u showed
-that she tinks that it’s ok to give a try and see if things work out
-so basically she didnt be wiht u coz she likes u
-but more that she be with u coz she sympathize
-well, tat’s what i tink MAYBE lar
this part is what she thinks about guys. what really happened!
-as in
-i feel that sometimes GUYS lar
-coudl and could not be u
-i duno as i havent been knowing u for the past…5-6-7 years?
-well, as i was saying….
-sometimes guy just keep on showering the girl with love
-he’s sooooo in love with her
-keep on buggin her with “oh i like u and falling for u”
-this that this that
-all the “yok ma” stuff
-however, he doesnt konw that the girl doenst like him yet and treat him only as her fren
-so when he keeps on doing that to hre 24/7
-she hasnt have time to feel the love and all…
-then the guy already make a move
-when the guy make that move de
-the girl is not even sure how she feels
-but she feels sooo “FORCED” to try to be with him coz he did so much de
-i mean…girls need space and time also mar
-SPACE is important
-and dont always say u like her EVERYDAY
-it’s soo boring to hear that man!
-i konw L.O.V.E is about sharing love and etc etc
-but then telling and showing it all the time can make it turn sour
-unless the relationship is alreayd stable
-tat;s the weakness bout u I GUESS
this part is what shows that love doesn’t really need all those sweet little things you do but sufficient of care, concern and understanding is the most important part. this is what we called magic of love or “chemistry”! and i guess that’s what we’re lacking of.
-like me and my bf, tho we were so long together
-we’r stil so in love
-and we dont really need to do cards/ art work/ poems etc
-he neve really do anything for me
-but somehow we are soooo understanding of each other
conclusion, if you’re not meant to be, you’re not no matter how hard you tried, how much efforts you put in. cheers! lastly, i want to dedicate this song to all the lovers our there! cherish and embrace. for i had lost mine!
i must be blind! blinded by the love i loved, hurt by the love i loved. the more i wanted to be her friend, the more she rejects me from doing so. tell me am i blind? i just needed more time. why can’t she spare me some? i needed time to make transitions. i can’t just snap myself and turn into someone who had never love her at all. what should i do?
the only christmas gift i ever wish for is you. i hope you could come back into my life. maybe i am too simple or maybe i am too naive but isn’t love should be simple. all i ever wanted was to share my life with someone, not anyone but you. all i ever wanted to give you is happiness and everything. if giving is the only option, i would continue giving.
christmas is around the corner. has everyone done their shopping yet? if not, hurry up for it is only a few days left before christmas is arriving. i am of course, an early bird. i have even passed the gift! a gift filled with heart and love together with a beautiful and sweet card. i hope she will love it.
days have passed. nights filled with emotions kept recurring. i am controlling it well i guess, i hope so. i did not show it or let it out and that should be a good sign. they say, no point crying over spilled milk. i just want to say, “i love the love i had for it had gave me blissfulness i ever longed for.”
i always thought that we will be a perfect match. we complements each other in many ways. i guess i am the ass-type lover. i am willing to carry all the burden and make my way through no matter what obstacles there are in front of me but i cannot do this without you. if only you are willing to do that with me, i am sure we will make it through. i believe we will!
8th
i will always fill up the white card for her and she only needs to sign. that is my duty! haha. till today, i am still doing that. i still remember there is once, no twice, i wrote her name instead of my name and the officer stamped and let me through. we had a good laugh. since when i became part of sim family? haha.
9th
when she tries any shoes, i will try go down to help her to try it out. hold on to her to make sure she is stable enough to try to avoid the fall. there was even once when she dropped her shoes, i went all the way down to get it for her and wore it for her. she told me she was touched. i wanted to tell her, “that is what i am suppose to do for i love you!”.
10th
this sad song reminds me of you. you said you love this song very much and i did somehow sang with you together. in fact, i love this song too. just feel like listening to this song over and over again tonight. ni hai ai wo ma by jolin.
5th
i craved for XXL crispy chicken. remember our plan to go taiwan together? remember the one we had in bugis was really spicy? i cannot probably finish it alone so i always wanted to share with you.
6th
remember that i always carry a bag filled with everything? water bottle, umbrella, your jacket, etc. you told me that i was like your doraemon. haha.
7th you told me that you do not really like to idle around doing nothing. either you will be busy working or you will be busy enjoying. well, you are the one who told me to find a part time job and the reason i am working now is all because of you who encouraged me to do so. for that, i should thank you!
zhi dao by guo jing.
i love this song. it is very meaningful. i am really envious of her previous lover because she loved him. how i wish i could be him? at least she would have loved me.
2nd
bubble tea shops are infesting every places and every corners in singapore. i never had any cravings for bubble tea but she loves bubble tea. sometimes, she bought one and i sip along. the often i did that, the more i am addicted to it. now, i really missed the bubble tea at bishan. i missed everything of it. we buy two cups, one for each, different flavours, sit at the playground, climb the tower miniature, usually you climb first and i will be the one watching over you, we talk about likes and hates. we talked and we talked till closing to 1130 at night, then you will hurry me, i will go down first while watching over you again. then, we walked home.
3rd
unagi is the fish i love the most. boneless and with the sauce, it tastes just great! apparently, she loves unagi too. think about it, we did not had sushi for a long long time. wonder when shall we go again?
4th
she likes lollipop, especially cola flavour. i do not have sweet tooth therefore i rarely indulge in it but once in a while, it does not hurt. i used to bought a whole pack for her. 10 lollipops in one packet. chupa chups. when do we stuff those little sweet things in our mouth again?
i know i should not be watching this music video but i really love this song very much. now that i could not hear your voice nor even see you, i feel terrible. i was wondering, do you feel the same too? how long do i need to wait till you get back to me? will you get back to me? i think i should list down 10 things that reminded me of you.
1st
this song reminds me of you. at the start this song, he mentioned that he love to hold her hand. i love to hold your hand too. the softness of your small little hand, i feel the warmth of the love. whenever you held my hand, i felt there is nothing in this world i could not do. you gave me a sense of bravery. a power to move forward through any barriers. when you held my hand, there is nothing that i am afraid of because i know i have you.
I was young but I wasn’t naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried
After all this time
I never thought we’d be here
Never thought we’d be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn’t make you see it
Couldn’t make you see it
That I loved you more than you’ll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor
After all this time
I never thought we’d be here
Never thought we’d be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn’t make you see it
Couldn’t make you see it
That I loved you more than you’ll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn’t make you see it
Couldn’t make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you’ll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
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